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I was doing good and then somewhere in the Fall I said "fuck it." I don't know why.

        * I stopped working out.

        * I stopped going to Weight Watchers.

        * I stopped taking my meds regularly.

Not surprisingly, I put weight back on and my headaches returned.

I broke out my fat clothes.

I pouted.

In November I went back to Weight Watchers only to discover that the plan had changed. And my old phone wouldn't support the new app.

I pouted some more.

In December I got a new phone and made a doctor's appointment.

Yesterday I went back to Weight Watchers. I'm at 200 pounds on the nose. I've gained back 20 pounds. WTF?! I sat in on the New Member briefing -- again -- and learned about the new program.

I went to the doctor (with a raging migraine) and renewed my meds. I set up appointments for a colonoscopy, a mammogram and blood work. (Yea for being 50 -- NOT!) Then I threw up from the headache and spent the rest of the day in bed.

So I'm trying again.

Again.